I came from a background where I was always demotivated. My parents logic was, if they give me lectures, I will do something. Well, I personally never cared. I liked to be myself and always felt that one should be always happy and enjoy what ever God has given to us. My father was a successful person in his life having a very good source of income. I was provided with everything which a person requires to lead a happy and tension free life in this world. In fact people around me believed I didn't even require to work much, as I can just take care of my father properties and lead a simple life as I used to be.
Soon I completed my Engineering and then my MBA. I started to work in a private company for a less salary. While I knew my father can get me settled in a much bigger organisation with a good salary. But again, I have been fed up with the lectures which I had from my parents. I felt, if I take my fathers help, he would again for life time tell me that this job is because of his fame and not my capabilities. My father even forced me to get some better job and he tried to provide referrals, but I ignored. My salary didn't made any difference to my living as I was already born in a good family.
I always tried to be myself. I enjoyed learning and analysing the things practically. I would just wander into forests, mountains and lakes to see practically what life was. Though I was not good at studies, this analysing gave me amazing skills. I would easily understand the concepts and practically troubleshoot them with ease. This also helped me in job, I was performing outstandingly and got respect from all the superiors. Some of my colleagues encouraged me to do business as I was having strong will to be better and never compromised on good service.
Soon I started to feel that I should really get into business as it would help me to provide jobs to people of my country. I made the decision and left my job. I started my own company and was providing out standing services. My company expanded at not only national level but also internationally. I was going very successful when something unexpected happened.
While I was focusing on business growth, I felt I should have some close friends to manage the business. As I can't always trust outsiders. I brought in some of my close friends. This decision was a disaster. I was getting lot of fame at both national and international level. Practically I never cared for this as my only goal was to build the the next Microsoft or Google. But my friends became jealous. They couldn't stand the fame which I was getting and they compared themselves to me. While I was travelling in luxurious cars and they travelled by small cars. They felt they were also working equally hard but I am taking all the benefit.
So slowly they started forming groups, they made our employees believe it were they who were working hard and I was enjoying the benefits. Which is absolutely not true. I was only travelling day in and day out to meet new customers and get more business, I prepared bench marks and they only executed. I always believed in team and they believed in fame. This groupism started spreading form employees to investors and then to customers. My friends formed new company and they offered jobs to my existing employees, the current employees were so brainwashed that they left the stable company and jumped into a company which was built on illusions. The customers shifted projects.
The result, my company which was having a turnover of Millions, which was built from zero in a span of 5 years collapsed in front of my eyes. I was involved in legal battles from my stake holders. Situation was so worse that I had to sleep in small lodges paying less than $5 per night and use the public bathrooms. Even those new companies formed by my friends collapsed within 2 months as they lacked experience and skills to run an organisation.
For many months I was away from my home, my wife, my small children, my relatives and friends. I was broken, shattered and working on daily basis to earn for my living. Sometimes ate at food stalls which distributed free food. And I was always occupied with the thought of doing suicide. This was the stage where all my relationships broke and I never gave a thought about anyone, as everyone was making me wrong. Even though I faced all these, I was always determined. I always believed it was only me who built the previous Organisation and after facing all these, I can build much bigger organisation now.
I slowly started getting enough money to venture into new works. I did what ever (even swept floors of offices) I could do to earn money and started closing my debts. Right now I have earned enough projects which are make me confident that one day my company will also be one among Microsoft, Google and Facebook.
Though I am still struggling with closing my debts and raising enough funds to expand my projects. I have developed a new hope which helped me come out of my sufferings and thoughts of doing suicide.
I feel if we work with strong determination, one can easily come over all the hardships. And I also know how easy it is to say that we should have determination. Because when one fells into these financial and relationship problems, it breaks us from each and every corner. I could overcome all these with a very heavy heart and I believe I can help others also to come out of these things.